12.

I didn't ask to be born,
so why can't I opt out of life?
Right or wrong,
Wrong or right.
Does it really matter?

People created righteousness,
and decided whatever is not right is wrong.
But is it always the case?

Day and day, I question myself.
Is living worth it?
Or rather, is my life worth living?

I didn't ask to be born.
So why was my parents adamant on having me.
What could I possibly bring them?
Lessons? Heartaches? Pain? Happiness?

Was I worth it?
The 9 months of waiting.
The pain I caused and suffered.

I question my existence.
Why did I exist?
What do I live for?
Who do I live for?
What am I living for?

Why will anyone want a child?
Out of love?
Or rather out of responsibility to the world.

Bet I'll never know the answers.
However,
One thing is for sure.
I did not ask to be born.

11.

Here's a silly story,
a story of a star.
Though she shines the brightest,
she's not really that smart.

She thought she knew things,
thought her judgements were accurate.
But little did she know,
she barely scratched the surface.

Being the brightest,
taught her to be confident.
In herself,
and with herself.

Yet her personalities were disliked,
"your attitude sucks"
" you're bossy"
" a half-fucked"

Things not said to her,
things she haven't yet know.
She knows it now,
and it surprises her.

How, in actuality,
some of the stars felt.
How, in reality,
most of her friends were happy and proud.

Though some may express their dislikes,
The remaining were,
proud of how she overcame her struggles,
how she builds herself from scratch.

It's funny how ..
People hide behind the masks.
Say hurtful things,
yet meant the other.

Their words were prickly and hurtful,
their intentions seemed bad.
But let's not forget,
for everyone has their own story to tell.

For all wounds will heal,
and maybe scars will remain.
Yet, let's not forget.
The precious lessons that were taught.

Forgive, but not forget.

10.

Weak minded people,
tend to feel more deeply.
That's why weak minded people,
tend to suffer more.

In hopes their feelings are reflected,
but many times they leave empty-handed.
It's no wonder they build walls,
to stop the predictable fall.

But once in a while,
a climber conquers them.
He goes beyond the walls,
to see what's the worth.

To date till now,
all champions left.
They found nothing,
but an empty patch land.

Tired from the climb,
the champions retreated.
Back where they came from,
to the land of comfort.

Effort they showed,
but was only out of curiosity
What they didn't saw and know,
was that it's a land with the capacity of growing flowers.

Flowers of all kinds,
flowers of all colours.
The land with the ability to bloom,
even in the harshest weathers.

If only they stayed,
if only they knew,
if only they tried.
They'll see flowers bloom.