13.

The first time I met you,

I had a passing thought.

Wow, he's good looking! 

But I bet he is here with his family

and probably already has a girlfriend..

I walked away. 

Not thinking much. 

Not even sparing you a second glance.

Not expecting to even have a chat with you. 

"Hey, excuse me"

You started the conversation.

"Do you happened to know ..." 

I told you I didn't know, 

Apologized and walk away.

Funny thing was, 

I was really shocked. 

Was it coincidental?

Or was it intentional?

My heart was beating so fast, 

and I noticed you following right behind. 

You were right around me 

while I was looking at the exhibitions. 

Pretended not to notice, 

but I was observing your moves. 

Pretended your presence didn't matter,

but it affected me so much. 

Our first encounter, 

felt like a really nice dream.

It felt like a scene from a romance kdrama. 

The encounter. Love?

You were persistent, 

and approached me the second time. 

I gave in. 

I let my walls down. 

What can small talks with a stranger do?

Mess with my heart? 

Oh funny.. 

I didn't know. 

You were nice,

probably nicer because you said you liked me. 

And I gave you the chance to. 

You told me whoever visited this temple with their loved ones,

they'll be bless to be together forever.
Guess it wouldn't work for us. 

It wasn't love then. 

There was only attraction. 

With your smile so tender,

my heart was captured. 

You had dimples, 

and I like it every time you showed them. 

Our encounter was so short, 

but yet it felt like I've known you for a long time, 

I was really comfortable around you.
I could be myself in your presence.

I couldn't put a finger around this.
It felt like a dream.
A really sweet one. 

But all good things don't always last, 

it comes with challenges
and only the determined ones can conquer. 

I guess, 

I should've known we wouldn't work out. 

You live so far away 

and we're different in terms of social status. 

We both chose ourselves in the end. 

I wanted to give us a try. 

But you told me to stop. 

You told me to let it go. 

You told me the truth 

and gave me a reality check. 

"Even if we try, we won't possibly be together for long"...
I realised, it was true

I cried, 

for the first time. 

My heart hurts, 

I never felt so much pain. 

The truth hurts. 

I know we couldn't be together,

and I shouldn't be selfish. 

I should let you go. 

You deserve your happiness. 

You deserve to find love. 

You deserve someone better, 

and that person is not me. 

"We'll still be friends"

you assured me. 

But I know it won't be long till we stop talking. 

Me, being me. 

I needed time to heal. 

I needed time to get away from you. 

The man who broke my heart. 

The man who I can never be together with. 

The man who I shouldn't have talked to. 

The man who I should have walked away from. 

The man who I will never come to see again. 

In such a short span of time,
you taught me so much. 

Even if we were together for only a short time.

I treasured every moment spent with you. 

But I guess...  

When it's time to let go. 

We have to let go,  

to stop each other from hurting. 

You said,
"We'll hurt now...
but it'll hurt lesser than compared to if we fall too deeply"
I agreed. 

Even if it was for awhile,

you brightened up my day. 

and taught me what is love. 

Something that is unexplained, so mysterious.

The one you like,
could make you feel so alive,
and yet,
can also hurt you so much. 

I miss you still, 

but I know I can't tell you that. 

I miss your voice,

but I know it's wrong to even call you.

I miss looking at you,

but I know it'll only make things worst. 

I've learnt to let go of this piece of love. 

You'll always have a place in my heart, 

and hopefully time will make everything better. 

I hope you'll find someone better than me, 

someone who'll love you more than I can. 

I hope you'll be happier with her, 

and treat her even nicer than how you treated me. 

I love you, and I wish you the best.