4.

Every time I close my eyes, 
I always see yours. 
So I wanted to forget, 
All the pain since we first met. 

If this isn't real,
Tell me it ain't true.
Wake me up from this dream, 
Like destiny, 
We're meant to be. 

This sad story,
Keeps me here, 
Keeps me from going,
I miss you. 

Stay with me,
Stay with me. 
I know it ain't easy.
I'll endure this pain.

If it means being happy,
just for a second.
I'll forget.
I'll stop.

With all the truth,
I hid it so deep.
I can't stop the tears,
Save me from the pain.

Even when you're not around,
The pain remains.
Like hot fire,
It scald my heart.

All the pain since we first met,
Take them away.

3.

You're something tied to me,
like my organs,
I was born with it.
There's no way out,
there's no way in.
I've been living since,
I was born with it.

Set me free,
I'll die.
Set me loose,
I'll burn.
Set me down,
I'll hate.
Love me now,
no fate.

Try to hate you,
but love told me otherwise.
I hurt myself,
trained to keep my heart protected.
Like a princess,
trapped in the tall tower,
with no interactions,
and in isolation,
makes me wonder about the outside world.

Time doesn't heal up wounds,
neither does a handy plaster,
it can't cover my injury
since I'm now bleeding faster.

Tell me everything will be alright,
tell me they'll be gone,
feed me all the lies,
and give me all the hopes.

Just like a moth drawn to a flame,
I'm lured in,
No shame.

2.

Who am I?
A single question could lead to so many complications.
Finding your identity,
in the midst of the crowd.
I hope I fit in,
that's what she felt.

When the days felt much happier,
every single day adds up to years.
Then,
things when down and under.
From happy to sad to distress,
have you ever felt every single emotions during the tests?

Negativity seeps in,
I was drowning.
Heart closed,
eyes wide opened.
I realised my fault.

Got to think clever,
need to think fast.
Need to put on a front,
so they won't ask.

Laughing was my cover,
crying to sleep was it.
Doing this routine daily,
I fell into a hopeless dark pit.

People say they know me,
but I guess they did.
They knew the person I'm pretending,
but not the one I hid.

Days adds up to years.
I wanted to change.
Friends told me to have a little faith,
I did.
No more sorrow,
no more fears,
no more brokenhearted tears.

I want to be happy.
God gave me this life,
and I am the one to lead.
No more walking back and forth,
no more crying.
This vicious cycle,
I got to get out of it.

Things can't hold me back.
Even with my imperfections,
my scars,
my stories,
I'm confident that I will not lack.

Sometimes,
the best thing you can do.
Is to not think,
not wonder,
nor obsess.
Just breathe,
and have faith that everything will work out for the best.

Life is beautiful, but not always easy.
I'm still fighting,
every single day,
let's not give up
and have a little faith.

1.

Time has always been my friend-enemy. 

Sometimes, I love you.

Other times, I don't. 

I wish for time to slow down.

I wish for time to stop.

I wish for time to go faster.

Then sometimes, I'd rather not at all. 

I wish to go back in time when I felt happiness.

I wish for time to stop here, so I could take in everything. 

I wish for time to go faster, so that I won't feel hurt anymore.

I wish to go to the future, so I could tell myself that I survived.

What I wish for is just a wish, 

But what I wish that God will grant me,

Is a wish for my loved ones to be happy. 

To wish for a time where hurt and lies never existed, 

where happiness and serenity spreads,

where there's no worries and pain,

where I'm carefree,

it's all but a wish that I stupidly still wish for. 

I still wish for it, even though that's something that wouldn't be granted to me. 

Have strength to live through even the toughest, they said.